回憶 . 心圖 ~ A piece of memory puzzle ...

吃饭总坐餐厅的同一个地方

坐公交也是同一个位置

包括上厕所都在同一个坑

喜欢看电影

不相信爱情

吃很多或者不吃

念旧

抱臂（大概就是叉着手吧）

怕黑

莫名其妙的孤单

无法抗拒的恐惧感--一个人住酒店的时候~~~

喜欢有口袋的衣服,穿没有口袋的衣服,不知道手往哪放

喜欢抱着东西睡觉

蜷缩着睡觉

喜欢角落和窗户

冷颤

晚睡

写字和阅读

独自流泪

笑容纯真

喜欢黑白或鲜艳

心事放在心里最温柔的地方，活在自己的世界里　

想做饭给自己吃结果做糊了少放盐了

反复听一首歌无限期

抱枕头

关机不想理人

在朋友面前很折腾

找机会做狂躁的举动

坐在车上听MP3听到哭

These are timeless words. They have reminded us how many times we have wished for someone to take us as we are, even if it’s a silent little wish we dare only to dream. Like an innocent little child we dream of the total acceptance of another person or others, to be accepted for all our faults, weaknesses and still cherish us in the same way after knowing the difference. Is it like gambling or is it trust when we find something in another person that helps us to accept ourselves and thus let us open up in a way we had never know? Haven’t you ever wondered what would happen if one day the world could see you as you are?

In most of us, there is always something in us we don’t particular like about ourselves. Sometime just the thought of them could make our stomach turn and it’s enough to makes us wanting to hide these not so pretty sides of us away. When it comes to personal relationships these broken pieces of us can make or break the relationship. When is it enough and when is it too much?

Deciding when to take the chance and face up yourself can be very challenging and personal, sometimes one can be very lucky and have an instant bond with another person and these things just come out naturally. Other times one just can’t help but keep the personal side hidden. We all have sides to ourselves that we don’t like but the thoughts of someone else not liking them scares us to death, especially when we have already become attached.

So far, there isn’t an easy way out for this situation. It’s like an inner war we must fight as to how to let another person into our inner most private world. A world that has not done so well for us in the past and one that we are dying to leave behind. But I think it’s important that we take the plunge and risk it all for the one we love and care even at the end it means another sweet bitterness good bye.

So, this is it. If we ever want to be truly real with another person, then we may have to put up a risk. No! We will have to and we must put up such risk. It’s all up to us to decide what is worth it and what is not. But at least we have Van Gogh, whom respects and honor this same innermost wish – To be totally accepted as who you are. Maybe it couldn’t be a reality for him, but for the rest of us, we just may be lucky enough to do so.

Sometimes all you have to do is think about someone and they show up. Unfortunately it’s usually not the someone you had hoped for. People fly in and out of our lives at rapid speeds coming and going like the wind. Some stay a year, some a week, some long enough to read this post. Then there are the ones that are in it for the long haul. The ones who stick by you and not only help you sort your baggage but help carry the load as well. What makes someone stay in our lives? How do we have the power to keep them and is everything just up to chance or are we masters of our own fate’s?

How do you know when you’ve found someone to walk along life’s path with you? Simple, they’re already walking it and in the same style shoe as you. Maybe it’s not the same cut or design but it has the same general idea. You get along and you fit together. With the rate that people come and go finding someone to stay is a challenge and a challenge worthy of a prize. The prize is a lifetime of companionship and more. But still you can’t help shake the fear that a twist of fate could take this person away.

Really the fear is legitimate because nobody knows for certain anything. Your companion could walk out of your life and in could walk someone new. So maybe it is all up to fate, maybe we don’t hold the key to the prize on this one. But this is true, if we treat our partners well they’re more likely to stay. If we value our relationships and cherish them they’re more likely to flourish. If we put our efforts into these relationships then they have a good of a chance as any to survive it for the long run.

Bracing ourselves for all the hello’s and goodbye’s can be difficult. If you learn early on that transition is a key to life it may move a bit smoother. Probably not, but at least you’re aware of the fact. Transitions are rocky, that’s why they’re transitions. They’re uncomfortable and they make us uneasy and no one wants to go through them, especially alone. So if we can hold on to someone or something to get us through those times it makes finding the other end a little bit easier.

No one knows for certain anything in life. Everything is a never ending series of change. Without this change I believe we would grow bored. Bored of our surroundings, our situations and each other. Embrace change as much as you can and it will embrace you. Try to move through it instead of resisting it and see what happens. You may come out a whole new you and be surprised with the end results. Life throws surprises at us, good and bad. It’s all in how we take them and what we have learned. Follow your own path and be your own self and see who walks beside you, you may be pleasantly surprised.

-blushmuch

The most beautiful expression of that kind of love which we all seek is found in the Bible -- 1 Corinthians 13:4-8. Here, the Bible elegantly defines love in this way:
 
”Love is patient and kind.
Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude.
Love does not demand its own way.
Love is not irritable, and it keeps no record of when it has been wronged.
It is never glad about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out.
Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.
Love will last forever.”

Once I heard someone said … Find out who God is and you will find that true relationship you’ve searched for your whole life. Once that is settled, He will give you just the right person with whom to have a healthy, heart-based love.
 
Now... I believe.

I know I shouldn't hold,

Even if I thought I know how let go.

I thought I should have know,

Even though memory can't be throw.

All I want is to be naive, as pure as a kid,

Hell knew my memory can't get rid.

My heart is already broke as I know it won't last,

But what I want is a just short gun blast.

I stared at the vase white space without blink,

Tons of reminiscences print likes ink.

I told myself to set free, although thoughts are haunted like ghost.